Wednesday, June 17, 2015

about finding things you like

To be honest, I have been in a little bit of a rut since I graduated from University. Since I am not working in my desired career or field of work, I continue to research and set goals towards building a more stable career and finding work that I enjoy. I haven't had much luck, except for one job interview and I left that feeling uneasy about my decision to work in that field. It is so confusing! So, I try to stay positive. I do really enjoy my job right now. Some days are certainly better than others. Our kids are so hilarious. It is amazing to me that they can change my mood. I can be pretty bummed going to work some mornings, but they make me smile with their goofy faces or silly things that they say. I love having conversations with them. Many of them are very curious, and sometimes it gets annoying but most of the time it is very sweet. I like the atmosphere right now. We are making some changes in our class room. We are going with a bug theme right now! I helped the kids make some coffee filter butterflies and paper plate lady bugs. One of the perks of the job is spending so much time outside. The kids can get pretty wild once we get outside, but it's all good. I love seeing their energy and I love watching them play! Oh, and then I find toy dinosaurs...

So with some research in the spring, I discovered the Palliative Hospice Volunteer course. I won't get into much details about the program, but I decided I needed to take the course to fulfill my interest with aging people, death and dying. I know, I am a little weird right, but get over it. Death is a part of life, a very important part of life to me. The course has been very interesting so far. We have talked about communication as a volunteer in hospice, dealing with the family and friends, aspects of religion and my favorite topic has been grief and bereavement. I can see myself helping families after their loved one has passed away and helping them recognize and realize that grief is also a part of the process. It has been a very eye opening, spiritual and exciting experience to be a participant in this course.

What I want to continue to learn more about is liking myself. I feel at this stage of my life, I have pretty much grown up into the woman I have always wanted to be, and a big part of that is being a wife. Luckily I have an amazing husband who loves me for who I am and who I will continue to become, but I also need to love myself just as much as he does. I like my vibrant and young personality. I like that I can be very naive, even to the point of embarrassment when it takes me too long to understand something. I like how I look right now, even though I could use a hair cut. I like that I have a little bit more time lately to do things that I like to do, like organize our home, bake and go on dates with my husband. I like my life, and I love my family, friends and the gospel that is in my life. I like my summer and I hope that there will be lots of exciting and wonderful things happen.

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